Marie Antoinette

The movie was ok... but it was kinda dragged out, but good.

I didn't get my jacket :( Mummy said we could go get it after the movie but then guess what?! The mall closed! So when I got home I bought a pair of jeans and the coat online cause I need new clothes BADLY.

Hollister Co. ended up haveing a hurnia because the billing address didn't match the shipping address so I got a lovely message from a women at Hollister on my cell phone. So I called when I got out of 'The CCS Media Team' club thing and they sent it right out. It was dumb because the address I gave them was right after all. So I just chated with the peeps at Hollister for a while for no reason.

Tomorrow and I am going to be a reporter and interviewing people in my lunch period about their Halloween Costumes. This video will eventually be presented in front of the Board of Education so that we can get funding for a daily news program. That would be so amazing.

After school I am taking pix of some friends until like 4? Then I am going to the GYM ith Jamie Sharrett for a spinning class. I am going to burn (supposidly) 700 calories and Ms. Karasek goes sometimes so she may be there.

Tonight I am off to Pottery class and I am gonig to make a ton of bowls and mugs! It shall be fun :D.

Well I better go

Toodle-loo

M@

Off to get my coat!!! :DDD

Hey were off to go c Marie Antoinette and I am getting my new coat!! YAYAYA

I am also getting a new pair of jeans. I have lately been saying 'Yeah well I could do that if I had a new pair of jeans', lmao!

Well... I am getting a pair from Hollister Co. (32's :D) and that coat from Hollister as well! The coat is so fluffy and pretty... I can't wait to wear it!

Toodles

M@

Halloween Dance

Yeah... I didn't go as anything... Well maybe I could say that I went as an Abercrombie & Fitch Model, however, it is debatable as to whether or not I'd make a good model, lol. But Jamie Fyke went as a mermaid and shes far from one so I guess I could have said I went as a mermaid.

So it was alot of fun. Jessica learned that I danced like a crazy person. I looooooove danceing to 'It's goin' down', 'London Bridge', and 'Buttons', lol it's just too fun.

Well.... heres a pic of me and Jess

M@

Halloween Dance

Yeah... I didn't go as anything... Well maybe I could say that I went as an Abercrombie & Fitch Model, however, it is debatable as to whether or not I'd make a good model, lol. But Jamie Fyke went as a mermaid and shes far from one so I guess I could have said I went as a mermaid.

So it was alot of fun. Jessica learned that I danced like a crazy person. I looooooove danceing to 'It's goin' down', 'London Bridge', and 'Buttons', lol it's just too fun.

Well.... heres a pic of me and Jess

M@

OMG my WEEK!

Ok well tomorrow-

Thursday-

Math- TEST
Science- TEST

7:00 to 9:00- Art Class

Friday-

CFM- Paper due
Science- TEST

3:00- Go to Wal-Mart to get Halloween Costume for dance
7:30 to 10:30- Dance

Saturday-

Theres something....
Art show in O-town

College Essays

Sunday-

Photography Project

Yeah... I'm ranting

After New York finding that it wasn't against it's constitution to not allowing gay marriage, New Jersey found that in it's constitution they allowed gay marriage. Today they legalized it.

New Jersey is the second state to have it legalized. Mass. being the first when in 2003, Mass's Supreme Court found it constitutional to allow gay marriage.

I am guessing that England sparked this idea since they legalized gay marriage in their intier country in 2002.

Our country needs to wake up, considering the countries in the world that once were considered 'not free countries' are now allowing gay marriage. Our world should be based on equality. Our country looks to closely at the damn bible. The bible was written a thousand years ago and no longer applies to our damn countries society. Gay marriage should be legalized, if you disagree that's you opinion. When you base ur decision on a religion it's opinion. It's not fact. Laws cannot be based on religion. I think we need to realize we have 'The Serperation of Church and State'.

That leads me to making an effort to ban the pledge. The pledge is a stupid idiotic act to always have this ingrained feeling of loyalty to our country. Not to say it works with some people, but when someone says 'Please rise for the pledge' it's gross that you do it without thinking, right?! I mean I use to not think, there could have been chains on me and I would have tried to get up. Out country is so odd...

The statement 'Under God' which was added into the constitution in the 1950's is also a very offensive statment to athiests. Athiests are a majority of the population too and the first amendment (I believe) states 'Our government will not act in favour of any sort of religion' ok... so like when you say 'under god' you are succluding urself to just any religion that believes in god. The religions excluded from this are Buddism and Muslim, I am sure there are more, but these are the only I can get off the top of my head. If our country says 'we will not honor a specific religion', I ask you, why aren't we doing it?

In PIG class (Participation in Gov.) I have to debate Immagration. I am for immagration. I found that out today, lol. I have always stated that 'I am against it' or 'inbetween'. But when you think of the conservatives views as 'They take $2 Billion out of our country a year' I say 'How much are we spending in Iraq each year spreading 'Freedom''. Or how much money did we send to the Indonesia Tsnumie (sp) I mean we a spending so much money on all this (Which is not a bad thing) then why is it a bad thing for people to come to our country, provide a service, and take back money? I know, you could argue that there not here legally, but I mean... I dunno, thats where people will get me, but when ur looking at the facts it just doesn't add up.

A stupid thing that The Bush Administration is now trying to allow is single-sexed class rooms. That right, they won't be co-ed. Considering ALL my best friends are girls, I would be a lonely kid! I would have had no friends. I would have sat alone at lunch, I would have played alone on the play ground. Doing this is basically segragation.

A lot of people argue 'Well if I had a daughter I wouldn't want some BOY hitting on my daughter'. Thats so dumb, so ur not against ur son hitting on some other guy's daughter? I mean if ur worried about that then raise ur son respectable.

The other wrong thing in this situation is that the people and the students have no say. It is the Board of Education that has this final say. This topic would be debated, I'm sure, extensivly.

I am against this completly.

LiFe iN gEnErAl

Let me tell you. All of you not doing anything will college right now, are lucky little people.

I have written all my essays, it now is just the matter of getting them all edited and ready to send into Bennington.

I have completed my Bennington Essays (Something worth paying attention to, An Analytical Essay)

And I have completed my Common Application Essays (Anything, Extra Ciricular activity)

GAH! It's over whelming!

Victoria has applied already to Buffalo State and she said she feels like shes sitting an waiting. lol. I think thats how I'll feel.

I suppose I'm not really worried about getting in... I have an 88 over all GPA and I am ranked 43rd in my class out of 93. My GPA will only go up and my Ranking will have gone down by the end of this year. The damn SATs are so dumb. I got like a 900. gah. There dumb. W/e though, I mean Bennington doesn't look at them, but I never have done well on standerdized tests and the year I took them they hadn't had lower ones in over 30 years. Mr. Baldo (My Guidencce Counceler) said the SATs was not a reliable test now, that maybe I should take the ACTs instead. WHY is out country so dumb with testing! I wish I was English and didn't have a zillion tests! I wish that I wasn't born into a society where all we worry about is creating bigger and better bombs. GAH were dumb. But I suppose I will serve a pupose on this earth, somehow. I mean I was obviously ment to live in the US or else i would be over in Leeds, Sussex, Manchester, or London, right?

I have decided what I want to do in life.... I know most you will mock me for it but its what I want to do. But this is just a goal, it's not reality. I want to teach photography classes during the evening or during the day and also teach a ceramics class. I want to have my own studio in a small artistic town! That is what I want to do. My dear dear ceramics teacher, Saundra Alpurn does exactly that and sells her pottery all over Cooperstown. However, her husband is a doctor. So what shall I do while I am not doing any of that?! I will be a stay at home dad! I want to be there always with my kids, I want kids, can't get enough of kids, and want to be there everyday to watch them grow up. I couldn't imagine not ever watching. I get butterflies all the time just thinking about it, I have built up excitement ALL the time about being older and being on my own! People often say 'Yeah well u'll wish your younger again'. I never hear that from those who love what their doing. Personally, I hate just sitting around on the weekends. I am so busy in school that I am just so use to being busy! If I get involved with art and find my absolute passion and love for it I will be able to go far. So what ever happened to my life of wanting Glitz and Glamour? I dunno, it just wasn't for me? I think it's to over rated. I want to live in a small apartment for ten years before I can afford my own house! I want to fill it with little things from art vendors near by, I want to fill it up with stuff from the local flee market. Call me crazy but that gets me excited about living on my own and saving for my dreams.

This has become an 'I want' blog hasn't it? lol

Well, lets fill it up with more 'I wants' then

I want to live in New England. Somewhere in the moutains where it's filled with diversity, filled with liberal minded people, has a good public school system, homeschooling group, or a private school. I want to have a studio up on a side street off of Main Street like the Smithie in Cooperstown. I want there to be other studios and art galleries that I can drag my kicking and screaming kids to the openings of mine or a friends art show.

I want for my house to look extremely French. Filled with antique wooden tables, old paintings of people I don't know, laughing heard everywhere. I want my house to be known for having guests and cocktail parties. I want my bedroom to be really old looking, with painted white panels, a creaky bed with a iron frame. The house is always to smell of fire place fires, Burberry Brit or London, and Coffee. Every morning I want to have Coffee. If this is an apartment, I want to be on the top floor so I can look over my balchony and see the town.

My boys will be named Ethan, Barrett, Christian, Miles, Leland, or Quentin. And my Daughters will be named Evelyn, Holly, Thereasa, Evangeline, or Antionette. They are to have a earthy artsie name. I want their hair to be dark, maybe a slight curl (As much as I freakin' hate curls, my kids will have them), they'll wear the typical jeans, dirtied with clay or paint, maybe charcole. Monthly we'll go c some movie that has some big political state, will be foriegn, or will be some 'old' movie from when I grew up.

I don't want to be takie.

Only the best.

I want to be a remembered family memeber, I want to go down as a nice guy that would do anything for his family. I want to go down like Margorie Barrett or like Aunt Winni. I want to be thought of as only possative. No negatives.

I will vote democrate unless a new, better, political party comes about. I will participate in 'Peace' and 'Human Rights' marches. I will be on Town Board or Board of Education. I will make changes in my community for the better.

I will write letters, not e-mails.

I may attempt at writing a fiction literiture novel.

I won't be the first person in community to have a car powered by a natural resource.

I will be the family member that hosts family picnics and family gatherings.

I will be a husband.

I will celebrate birthdays like no other. Birthdays will be something that will be special. Not takie. Not party hates bought at the grocery store. No store bought frosting. The cake will not be served in a glass pan. My birthday, and my families birthday will not be looked at as 'just another' birthday. The cakes will be bunt cakes, the lights will be off, everyone will be in their best clothes. Clothes family and family-like friends will attend. They will have recieved a formal invation in the mail. I want to have kids born in the summer so I can have their activities outdoors. I want to get pictures of them outside with the fireflies.

Every night before I go to bed I will lie in my used leather chair, read a book, and drink coffee. Possably with a sleeping toddler on my lap.

I was told I'll have three kids. I will have three kids.

I want to wake up before everyone in the house does. Right now the sounds impossiable.

If I have enough money I will buy clothes from England, not from 'China'.

I want to know everyone in my community.

I want everyone to know my and my community.

I want to someday travel to Europe. Go to England, France, and Austria. Maybe Italy.

I want to Honeymoon in France. Not in Paris.

I will not get divorced.

I will not get seperated.

I will support the people who are running for office the best of my ability. I will only support those who support me and my family. Not their 'company' or their 'fantasy'.

I want to c my siblings often.

I will write them weekly.

However, I know I will never get a response.

I don't want to rely on others for help.

I want to have two close friends that are lesbians. Really beautiful women with children.

*Have I jinxed all this?*

I hope not.

I will recycle.

*This is a long blog...*

I will keep a diary, maybe not daily. I will just write in it often and it will be refered back to when I am dead. Maybe sometimes when I am alive.

I want black and white photos of my children, myself, and my spouse, ALL over the house. I want them in dark wood frames.

I want to fall asleep with someone I love 4-ever.

I see this life and town already. This huge mountain with a valley below it that some person plopped a town some 300 years ago. I see myself looking my balchony over the town and seeing this huge mountain cover with a couple pine trees here and there.

I want to walk down main street and see at least one person I know.

I want to see my kids have chicken pox. *Aren't I a morbid person?* I may take pictures of them, with a old mercury thermomitor in their mouth because I think it looks cute.

One of my sons will have the middle name Albert. The other with Matthew. If I have another boy, he will have Robert.

I believe in tradition.

But not the type of tradition that makes you a conservative. AKA republican.

I can't believe I actually called myself a republican at one time, that was my 'dark' period, I suppose.

One of my daughters will have the middle name Barrett. The other will have Jessica. Maybe Trista. *Trista doesn't flow much with my names*

My last name will be hyphinated. I will not be just Matthew Albert Denison. It will have an addition to it at some point.

I was told I am to meet the love of my life at age 23.

I hope I find life at 23.

I want to get married at 23.

But I don't want to be tied down with kids at 23.

Maybe at 26 or 27?

I hope my last name with be Denison-Llewelyn

or Denison-Darcy *U have to say Darcy with an English accent for it to sound cool*

I don't want my relationship to be based around sex... purely anyways.

I want to go to Bennington College in Bennington, Vermont.

I want to stay in Bennington for atleast a couple years after I graduate.

I don't want to be hated by family for choices i made that maybe they wouldn't have.

I hope I'm not judged by other people when I am older.

I want to be surronded with beauty and un-consiouse beauty.

I don't want to regret anything I did in the past.

But maybe I will.

I never want to live in New York. It's a crummy state.

I want to see Heather Vann, all the time after we gradute. I want her to always be apart of my life because she means alot to me and life without her would simply be odd.

I want Brittaney Brentzel to always be a friend of the family also. I want for my kids to call her Aunt Britty.

As for Victoria... well shes going to have to learn to design houses french-like because she going to be my interior designer if I can afford her of course ;)

Christian... I just hope u marry Heather!

Scott & Koh, my inseperable boys who were always there when we were all growing up. I hope we hold onto some of those really odd pacs we made a 1,000 years ago.

I want to see my sister often. Since I will be married before her she will come to my house with bags of clothes for me that she bought at the Abercrombie & Fitch store. She buys me clothes at the Outlet stores in California. She has more money then I do. She wanted the life more then I did ;). She will have four kids and my kids will not really know them since their off in California but when we get together annually they will always pick up like they were best friends or like they had just seen them yesterday. Jessica's husband... I dunno, will I like him? Jessica and I will get up early when she stays at my house for a week before I have kids. We will get up, have coffee, and gossip about family. She'll tell me about new products at Macy's and Nordstrom's since the sounds of my life won't be able to afford such stores. My kids will probably get Locroste Polos in the mail for Christmas. Ralph Lauren for their birthdays, they will send their Aunt Jessica a thank you card in the mail with scribbles of crayon all over the computer paper. Jessica will always smell of CoCo Chanel. Jessica will have a nude photograph of her pregnant with each child hanging on her walls which I took.

Her husband may think I'm odd. He may be more of a sports fanatic and stay in California when she comes, which when I think of it, wouldn't bother me. I don't like other dominante males. HA, I'm an ape.

I will have a family portriate done, painted, in the back yard, when I have a home. It will be painted by one of my best friends.

When it comes to my brother Javi, I will read the stories he and his father have written. He will probably write a series of stories. Something probably like Narnia. Even when I'm dead, his laugh will always strike me as rediculously funny.

Megan... I don't know. She'll probably not have kids as I see it. Her animals will be her kids. She will have three to five dogs. She'll live on a large farm filled with animals from abused families. She will be the kind of women you may call crazy when you see her driving down the road with all her dogs in the back her car. I will probably have to call Megan ahead of time to tell her that I do not have the space for animals in my house, because anytime I don't call she'll bring all the dogs she can and all the cats that like to be in the car.

Kayla... it is really hard to tell what shes going to be doing. She will be in Cooperstown. Doing something maybe with Ace. Or she'll be a stay at home mom. She will be an active member in the school community always fighting for better ways for her children to be educated. She and Megan will both lead completely differnt lives but they will see each other often. Considering Kayla and I will be closer to each other then possiably our own siblings we will see each more then the others. My kids will be considerably older.

I want my life to be a good one. Not jazzed up with all the buisness factors. i don't want to think about our worlds economy or world affairs. I don't want to be involved with our countries stupid mistakes such as war.

I plan to live my life to the fullest and do everything on here.

I want to c.....

Marie Antionette soooooo bad! The movie supposidly makes her look really good, but people say shes a bad person. I dunno! I keep getting mixed messages!!! She married King Louis somthing when she was like 15 I think and then she like spent tons of money on stuff. Marie was queen during the french revolution I believe and then she was suppisdly had said 'Let them eat cake' to a French Tabloid. If she had said 'Let them eat cake' she had said it to the starving people of France. Cake was the stuff from bread that oozed out and fell into the fire pit while the bread was cooking. Cake is stuff you can find at the bottum of your stove. I can't say that I've eaten it but it sounds gross. So after she 'said that' she was taken by French Rebels and they beheaded her and her husband.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KqvMl9hIHUc&mode=related&search= theres a really good ad from YouTube that I watch ALL the time. lol.

I maybe going to c this movie tonight.... OoOo

Gah ten weeks!

Well I have been in a school for ten weeks... well next week, so I have been in school for nine... I owe like three tests gah!

Math: 88
English: 87+
AP Art: 95
Drawing and Painting: 92
Science: 90ish
CFM: gah no idea!
PIG and Econ: 90ish
GYM:.... I dunno haven't been in 2 weeks, hahaha


Tonight I shall put more pix on. I have a dr.'s apt. so I will be home at maybe like.... 4:30ish. Toodles

HOMECOMING!

I am at school :p haha I will put pix up sometime this weekend ;) ;)